I wish the Happy things affect me as well as Sad things do. It's ridiculous how the sad things affect me so much that I could just stop functioning immediately, this feeling then swallows me whole and stay with me for as long as it likes.

and Happiness only stays for awhile.

Happiness is more like a friend of mine, she doesn't stay, she only comes around and say hello and then disappears again.

Sadness is like my life, she stays by me like my shadow, she stares down into my soul and remind me of how much of a failure I am, she tells me that I don't deserve to be happy.

Happiness will come by once in awhile to give me a glimmer of hope and light, that not all my hours will be filled with Sadness. Happiness tells me that Sadness may stay by my side all the time, but it doesn't mean I have to feed it.

I think that if Happiness doesn't come by as often, I might think the world is a horrible place.

Sometimes I feel sad that Sadness is always with me instead of Happiness.
I question why Happiness doesn't stay..

If I was 5, I might say that Happiness is busy sharing her beautiful soul with everyone else in the world for they too need a glimmer of hope in light in their life too.

But I am 22, I'd like to believe that my Happy spirit is going around sprinkling her happy glow onto others while she's away while Sadness just grew on her own to be a miserable shadow.. huh

I feel very attracted to Sadness, I feel compassionate for Sadness.. I wish I could have Happiness around to cheer her up, to elevate her from all the gloom that she has swelled upon.