Had a casual meet up with fellow zoo volunteers yesterday and it was rather eye opening. It did bring up a major thought in my head: people are doing things that they don't like to do but they don't have a choice but to do it. Is life really that way? They also bring up the fact that they are trying to find happiness in their own little ways despite how they don't like having their current job/life with that job. There I was sitting in the corner feeling dumbfounded as I do not feel one bit like them at all.
As a matter of fact, I felt completely opposite of what they were trying to share. I felt as though I am happy with whatever I have in my life so far. Even though I may not have everything I want, or I have certain complaints here and there. But in general, this is what I rather have and would be happy doing for a couple of years down the road. No future thoughts about me leaving this field and searching for something else that I would rather do instead. THIS is what I want to do. I got there.. haven't I?
I say that, but of course there are other things that I need to think about that bothers me a lot. If only money wasn't the issue in everybody's life. Would that not make things a tad bit easier? I feel like I am only bothered when people bring up their problems to surface and make me go; "OH? Why do I not share their feelings? Why are they agreeing/complaining about those things? Should I be living my life like them?"
I need to take a step back.
They went: I am happy where I am now, but I don't want to continue doing this for a long time. I want to find something else, something for myself. But this job pays for what I am good at, so I am going to hang around for awhile.
That sounds just about like everybody, doesn't it?
I am very confused.
Is it because I am lucky?
I would not think so because I had to work my way to get to where I am. Sure this job is not secure in a long term. But I can live with what I currently have.
.. right?
Sunday, July 24, 2016
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