Why can't I ever get anything right?
People are scoring their tests and assignments left and right, while I am only good with marks between 50-70. Never anything above 70. Why can't I just be smarter or something?

It's not like I don't want to get god marks, it's a feeling where I am not sure if I am doing the right thing.

I sit and I worry about the things that I am not getting right and I can't actually figure out what exactly I am missing or what I am not doing right. People keep saying that there's no right or wrong to things, but my results have been returning and proving me that I am pretty much wrong at everything. It's like I don't have a sense of direction on where I am supposed to head to. I'm just sitting here, trying to figure my way out.

I don't do things last minute either. I would work on it as soon as I can because I know I am normally unsure of what I am doing. At least when I start my work earlier, I can give myself more time to think about what I am doing instead of just bluntly handing in a report that was not thought of and probably has no content.

Yet, still I am not getting it.

I would work hard for my assignments and test and I still get the same results as I would if I went in without any prior preparation. It really does feel like I am wasting all my time putting in so much effort into something that wasn't fruitful. It's frustrating. It really is frustrating.

I think the worst part is that I didn't really know how to ask questions as well. I would feel extremely afraid of asking questions, thinking they may be obvious questions or answers to and that I would appear dumb and would have wasted their time and effort on me.

I just feel like I can't get anything right.