Unemployed
But content.

I feel like I have everything I could possibly want.

Anything more would feel greedy.

My SNSD list

I feel like I need to keep one of these somewhere. Since my blog has been surviving so much of my days, I strongly believe this will be a good place to keep it :D

SO!

It has been very long since I last rambled about SNSD in my life as a whole. I remember I was in Sydney managing a team of 20 for Melbourne Uni Ultimate Frisbee AUGs. I was there sitting in front of the van with Jinwei by my side and I could not contain how upset I was when I found out there was a controversy with Jessica leaving SNSD. Being the girl who has loved SNSD from the very beginning, it was very hard to accept that SNSD was no longer a 9 girl group.

Fast forward 10 months, I still could not accept the fact that SNSD is now a 8 girl group. Their single 'Catch Me If You Can' made me want to cry a heaps load, especially when I discovered one with Jessica in it. 'Party' was a brand new start for SNSD as a 8 girl group. I wasn't quite pulled by the idea of 8 still. But I know a whole part of me still loves SNSD for whoever they are. I will always love Jessica, feel sad with thoughts like 'ah, if Jessica was here'. There's still 8 other members who I have love..

I remember my favourites from when I first started with SNSD
SooYoung
Yuri
Yoona
Sunny
^one by one through the year. I fell in love with Sunny when she was a member of chon chun bul pae (Invicible Youth - I had to wiki this because I couldn't remember the english name LOL)
Then TTS came out, I moved from SeoHyun to Tiffany to now, TaeYeon.

Kid Leadar! <3

AND THEN..

the purpose of this blogpost for myself
What albums of SNSD do I actually have?

k- Into The New World
k- Girls' Generation
k- Gee (I LOST THIS ONE)
k- Tell Me Your Wish
k- Run Devil Run
k- Hoot
k- The First Asia Tour: Into The New World
k- The Boys
j- Girls' Generation
k- Twinkle (TTS)
k- I Got a Boy
k- Mr. Mr.

Need to buy:
j- Girls' & Peace
j- Love & Peace
k- Holler (TTS)
k- LION HEART

Lion Heart reminded me why I loved SNSD in the first place. :)

It is difficult to live a life not knowing HOW.

Right or wrong, nobody knows.

The only thing to know is the feeling that you get after doing that particular thing. Say if you feel good about it, then I suppose it should be right. But if it feels bad, does it really mean is wrong though?

Winter really is a horrible season. Everything about it makes me feel negative. My body functions differently and I could not push myself as hard as I'd like to. Then I get confused on whether I am making excuses to not push any harder, or if I really am finding it difficult to perform at my peak.

I don't think it's a question I have an answer to.

Life is rather confusing. I think I need a therapist.