Strange how your closest buddy doesn't need to know how exactly you're doing. If you feel like its necessary to share, you'll just share whatever you feel like sharing. You spare unnecessary and unhappy faff from each other because they aren't that important or necessary.

'Friends' first question: how's life?
How do you even answer that? I mean sometimes things are hard to discuss and the fact that you haven't been talking for awhile, it just makes it that much harder to open up and share moments.

Awkward conversations where I'd try my best to avoid being part of because it makes me feel so much more horrible about myself; I have yet to figure myself out, let alone my life. How do you open up such a heavy topic with a 'friend'? I didn't quite want to be reminded about how horrible my life has been, but its the only thing I think of when people asks me that question as a conversation starter.

:/

Avoid, be honest or lie?

I also don't think people are actually that keen about me, when they ask 'how's life?' because I know it's purely for a conversation and that's about it. They're probably not going to remember much other than the awkward feeling I'd give them when I answer honestly.

Until I figure my life out, it's going to be a whole lot of awkwardness.