5 months ago I was terrified of becoming useless, afraid to see that becoming a reality.

Today, I loathe at the fact that I am enjoying life with nothing to do or worry about.

Well, a voice in my head is telling me that I really don't deserve 'enjoying my life' just yet. There's so much I could achieve. If only I tried. I want to talk to somebody about my thoughts, where I won't be judged at all because the only voice I am hearing is me telling me how useless I am. There's a lot of negativity in this voice in my head, no positivity at all. It's definitely winning against my will to dampen it. Yeah.

I am very confused.