It was a miserable weather tonight. If I had the choice, I would have just cuddled Pengy and stay warm in bed. Though to be honest, that choice was given to me rather readily more than a couple of times too. But I sat there in the car for twenty minutes, psyching myself up, debating hard if I wanted to be out there playing in a horrible weather, or be a coward and stay in the car and be warm.

I went out anyways. I guess I wanted to prove myself wrong, that I can actually survive this horrible weather. I knew by taking the step out of the car was already a good enough effort on my behalf and would have been proud. But it went even more than that. My self motivation somehow just kicked in and I went above and beyond what I expected myself to do.

But of course, I was told to take off my winter jacket and join the team for training. I refused, there was no way I could do anything without my winter jacket in the bitter cold weather. Then I realized that I wasn't able to catch a lot of discs that were thrown to me. Disappointed, I kept trying anyways. It could be my jacket that was slowing me down, or maybe I just wasn't 'warmed up' enough yet.

After training ended, I took the opportunity to throw with someone to get my catches on. I was also told to make sure I catch all my discs. Hurhhhhh.. I took that in and I continued my throwing sets.

Game time, somehow I was pumped up to do my best today. I really don't know what has gotten into me. I probably haven't felt like this in a long time and it felt really good. It made me work really hard and I just wanted to work with the team as much as I could. There maybe a few throwaways, but I didn't feel frustrated or angry. It somehow feels like I have been elevated in some way, it's strange, but it's nice.

I am very proud of myself today. I did a lot of things that I would never thought I had the courage to do. :)

Also, I have determined that I get high after every game of ultimate frisbee. Doubt it works for tournaments though, but definitely Monday leagues so far. 😂

Ps: omg. Mids. Wow. #upgrade
Umbilical is so hard. I died. But I did amazing, so.. #yeay