Well hello there. It's about 15 minutes til today ends, feeling like blogging, but I have yet to have a topic in my head that would be worth talking about.. yet? Hopefully that 'point' would come up sometime soon as I babble my way through my post today. Most likely in a most random way possible. I miss being absolutely random though. Where things just didn't matter, and everything would be fine.

If only things could always be that simple. Waking up, having a list of things to do, allowing things to just flow in a way that it is absolutely free. Nothing to hold it back from progressing. Unlike the past two days where I would wake up, not knowing what to do next. Also the fact that you know you have a whole bunch of things to deal with, you just end up feeling overly lazy about it, leaving it til the later days to deal with. Why? Cause it feels like I have all the time in the world to do whatever I want at this point of time. Not the typical, rushed and packed daily life that I used to have.

This can be deteriorating. Dang. I really need to set my priorities right. :/ But really, right now I have passed my phase of hardship as a first year international student. With me blabbing on and on and on, endlessly about how much I have changed with almost every post I have ever posted. Hrmm.. Maybe I should talk about something that I have yet to change ever since I step foot here.. ?

ONE. I am lazy as ever. This very bad habit of mine has caused me to have severe gastric pains last year. Staying back in college just because my last class ended at 4.30 then, and I would normally stay back and hang around in the library til about 8-9pm, I developed the habit of not eating, just because I didn't feel like eating. Also since I didn't have the habit of having breakfast in the morning, it also meant that I was pretty much fasting my way through the day. WHAT NOT? Gastric. Somehow, I never learned from that. Even right now, it's gotten worse. Because then, I still could go home and have home cooked food waiting for me to gorge into. Here? I have to rely on my own cooking abilities and also my patience in getting food into my tummy.

The laziness and the whole lot of excuses I give myself, left me eating very unhealthily and sometimes, not eating much for a few days straight. I question myself, why would I torture myself? But laziness wins. :/

Health really is important regardless. One where everyone seems to be neglecting, assuming it wouldn't be a big deal. Til the day when everyone grows old, and the impacts of what our younger days initiated, we are all going to regret badly.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh.. Bad bad bad attitude. But it's my life. And because it doesn't feel like it's an impact to anyone else, I GIVE NO CRAP.. somehow. As long as I am not a bother to other people around me.. right?

Hrmph. Room has been a complete mess too! I couldn't even bother folding my clothes and they are all piled up in my open luggage, right there clogging up my walkway to my bed. It's not only ONE luggage that is filled with clothes, it's actually BOTH of my luggage are open and filled with clothes. Not to mention my books being sprawled all over the floor.

I AM A MESS! D: