There is just so many things going through my head right now, but nothing comes through those thoughts. All they have been and could possibly remain, are just thoughts on their own. It's so difficult for me to make them come true. Part of me feels the fear of the unknown, not knowing what could it actually do to change the course of the future for me and the other part of me just refuse to leave this comfort zone of mine. Every little new adventure I take, feels like I might be doing something wrong. If it ever does go right, it is a blessing for me. Maybe it's because I still feel as though I don't deserve any good that can happen to me. It feels too comfortable to leave and create another new path. It feels like there wouldn't be any more time for me to regain my pace if I ever do flunk in anything that I do. Everything right now, is at a pending phase.. It's just stuck there in my mind and I don't know how to find that courage to bring it out.