I don't love myself enough to feel like I deserve the love I have.

I feel lonely and the only thing that made me feel secure is when he is physically around. It sounds pathetic, but I couldn't help it. I've lost myself in the midst of growing into the woman I should be; too scared and unsure of who I want to be as a person, really.

Picking up fights with him and getting absolutely frustrated at every person I have to discuss matters with. If things didn't go right, I'd flip almost immediately.

The fact that I don't love myself is probably the reason why I dont feel appreciated as a person or as a friend. I couldn't feel the love, I couldn't see it. I ended up assuming that the bad present would result with a doomed future. I pushed people away, for I feel like I had nothing worthy for their stay.

I couldn't figure out how to find my lost passion.
I still can't.