It's the last week of Uni!
No doubt, I am actually excited with the fact that uni is ending. 3 horrific months of strenous studying, cleaning and everything else. I only remember that I was having super problematic troubles with my assignments. Those were my only troubled times with uni. Everything else, was pleasant.

Almost.

This semester, I had 2 times of 3 hours lab sessions. Three hours worth of play and no homework or studies. Oh, such joy. Though I have complained to myself silently through the whole 6 hours of the week, I would stil have to say that I enjoyed it. HEHE. Hypocritic bitch, I know. I AM SORRY! :(

Love the fact that my mondays and fridays have got only 2 hours of lectures. I am allowed to wake up late on mondays, and I had made a terrible habit for skipping fridays' lectures just so I could spend the rest of the day studyin in the library. Skipping lectures is probably one of the dumbest decision to do this sem. Though I could easily catch up using the online recoded lectures, but when I stop to calculate how much each session cost me, I think I would rather suicide. Still finding the cost of my course ridiculously expensive. :/

So what do I do now?
With the fact that my cost is still ridiculously expensive, should I just continue studying here in Monash, where I have learned to adapt myself to? Or should I transfer over to somewhere cheaper then I wouldn't feel as guilty as I am now?

Arguement 1:
I have pretty much settled the courses for my three years to graduate under a major in Zoology and Genetics here in Monash. Side note: it would cost me about 100 thousand (no clue what is it called in words... one mil? shyitttttttt). Once I graduate, then I could find a proper paying job, to earn back that money, to relieve that guilt I have built up for 3 years long.

Would learning to adapt into a new place, distract me even further? WAIT! Is my results even good enough to be transferred to elsewhere cheaper? Hrmmmm. Questions Questions.

Arguement 2:
If I were to transfer, I am still having UTas in my mind. Probably because I have yet to see for my own eyes what is it like living in Tassie, it questions me. Plus the fact that it is HALF the price of Monash, it really is tempting. Side effect to that would be that I have to readapt to the new environment, plan my subjects and courses all over again (they would most probably have different courses and directions in the road to graduation). Also, it is much much much colder there too.

So, what do I do?

My head is definitely leaning towards the first option; staying here in Monash and study until I graduate, then earn the money to pay back that guilt.

Sometimes I wish I was much smarter, so that I could get scholarship and not worry about money at all. Imagine if I had scholarship, I wouldn't have to worry about spending too much on food or anything, simply because my education is taken care of. But nope, I don't have the brains. And so I have to be the slave to my own guilt.

Anyhow. I do enjoy myself here in Monash. I managed to have a few people whom I can call friends now. Took me so much tears to get to where I am today (silly with the tears, I know, but DUDE! my scumbag brain did it to me :/ ). Though I may spend most of the time alone, I got used to it, and I actually do enjoy being alone now. HEHE. The coldness is still not my friend though, probably one of my biggest enemy, EVER. pfffffffftttttttttttt.

Heading home in a month's time. EXTREME EXCITEMENT!
Even if people won't come to me, I swear I will waste some petrol, go knock on their door, and say : HI! I AM BACK. I AM HERE IN YOUR FACE TO TELL YOU, I STILL REMEMBER YOU. THANK YOU FOR NOT FINDING TIME TO SEE ME. BYEBYE! Then I would proceed in driving off with my little bright yellow car named SUNNY, beaming into your face, making you remember that moment forever.

I am a bitch like that.
Problem?

Well. If you get it, you pretty much deserve it.
Yeap, I don't care anymore. Makes me much happier now that I can tell the difference.

;)