September had been massive. To think back to the first day that I have set my foot here in Melbourne, it still feels surreal that things are changing that rapidly. At least for myself. Still partially wishing I could watch me run my life through a third person view. Thinking so, just makes me feel as though it is insanely awesome to do so. Somewhat like playing god. nehehehehehe. Though, doesn't it make you feel like you have no responsible for that being that you are watching from a third person view? Somehow, doesn't it cut down that burden for a tad bit? Or am I just being mad? :O

Let's try incorporating this into a FPS gamer view. First Player Shooter, the way I prefer my games to be played. In a way, you know you can control whatever your character is doing. Would have to say, it greatly reflects on what you do in real life. You press on W, you walk forward, you press D, you swerve to the right for a little. But in reality, you have so much more movement as compared to that. These games are limited, but depending on how you could toggle your mind in controlling your character, basically describes you.. almost accurately. My favourite character of TF2, would be the pyro. Given a fire blaster, I could pretty much run up to my enemy's face and burn the crap out of them. I remember my friend telling me: you somehow manage to get in the midst of all those people and somehow run out of it, perfectly fine. I like that sentence, probably not the exact words being said, but it did make me ponder a little bit on what I do both INgame and OFFgame.

It probably isn't a good idea to link video games to reality. But screw that, this is my blog, I wish to do what I wish. :D

How I see problems, I somehow omit the reality to what negative impacts it would bring upon me. Because of that, I usually ram into problems without thinking twice, and thought I would just deal with it when I am in it. From time to time, this would cause me to be stuck in it for quite some time. Would have to say, because I was pretty much unprepared for what was coming my way (like I said, I couldn't be bothered). The problem is that once I am in it, I would normally be thrown into exponentials of different directions, whereby I would be driven to the verge of giving up. But because I know if I give up, I will pretty much die there in the middle of it. Nope. Not the best place to die, at all. Why not just finish it up, and leave victorious, right?

Though the side effect to that is that, I may not completely solve the problem to a 100%. Problems in my case, are normally accomplished about 80% on an average, and I will be satisfied, then I am off. If by luck, I get a 100% on the effort, I will be ecstatic! Plus with the fact that my effort is almost never 100%, I would never put in high hopes either.

I aim to get the highest number of kills, every time I play TF2. Pyro fits perfectly with me, I would just run into my enemies, and blow torch the crap out of them and escape, hoping I had burned them enough to achieve my aim. It feels satisfying, really. Second favourite character, would be the sniper. On days when I feel like I have extra patience, this is the character for me! It tells a different story altogether too!

I really feel like I could describe each and every characters of TF2. Too much gaming moments going on for the past whole week. Please forgive me, I had been kills-deprived for quite some time now. :O

NAAAAHHHHH.

What if it's RPG? Role Playing Games, are what  I would call, playing God. Yes, you control whatever that character of yours do, but it still partially feels like there is only that much you can do to it. It will eventually do it's own things if you leave it idle. Games like Diablo3 and the Assassin's Creed series, allows you to have a view from the top down, giving you much more view as compared to what you see in FPS. I also sometimes find that RPG are alittle too true to be real. Why would the character have so much of loot space that you can practically LOOT so much, and run around like normal? At least FPS gives you limited loot, it feels much more... surreal?

Games like RPG, makes me feel better about myself, sometimes. It really does give me that feeling that I am watching myself playing God on myself. If that is possible, in any way. :P It feels like there is less responsiblitity held within, and you are free to watch yourself and tell yourself how to improve or where you are going wrong. Playing God, really.

Oh holy guardian angel of mine. Do you even exist? :O