Today, would be the first time I am taking public transport from my sister's all the way to uni. Giving myself an estimation of 2 hours of travel time, we shall see what happens. At the mean time, I shall use my time to do some writing. :D

It used to be me being all nerdy, reading novels whenever I could. I know that nerdy part of me hasn't left me, as I have several books in my drawer, hoping that I will have a chance to read it somehow. But when I think of the list of things to do, I would always feel slightly sad, as I would have to let it go. Would have to say that some sacrifices had to be made, in way for other much more important stuff to do; like studying and socialising much more. Same thing with gaming, if you would ask me. It is something that I would love to do, that I would keep it for the very last after I am done with all the other mundane things I have to do.

Not seeing the point of enjoying myself when there still is a huge chunk of responsibility of deal with. You could say, that I am still in my first year, it shouldnt be as bad. Honestly, I will never know until I am given the chance to actually experience it for my own, right? As of now, what I look at, is the toughest as it could get. Yes, I am aware that it gets much more difficult from here on. But I am going to have to take that slowly. *consequently, I will be very slow in improving, actually. Mehhh. Screw that.

Right now, I could see a significant change in me when I compare this semester to the one before. Both good and bad. When I got back from my first winter break, I told myself that I will not allow myself to be the same as I was back in the first sem. Simple reason was because my depression was written all over my face, blog and almost everything I could get my hands on. It is possible that I was holding on to my past a little too much, and I found it incredibly difficult to let go. My main goal this semester was to let lose (and loose), and indulge whatever that is brought up to my plate. Literally. Also to meet up with whoever who is willing to meet up with me, and forget those people who give no crap about contacting me.

Mean. It's nice being mean once in a while, especially when the person deserves it. But how could you tell whether he or she deserves it or not?

Besides, I definitely cry and complain less about things now. I just couldnt bother anymore. I was too busy getting myself busy. Heh! I even gotten too lazy to cook my own meals, p meals every now and then because I couldnt be bothered. It's bad, I know. But.. sometimes, I just couldnt help it.

This semester, I have been travelling more than ever. I started this semester off with a ski camp up at fall's creek, with Malaysians from other universities. Had my chance to mingle about, and also my first ever experience of real snow! :F Then my sister who lives further away than she used to. It only made sense if I spent my weekend at her place instead of one dinner-trip. Also, a field trip to Rawson for my geography unit. I got to understand Australian culture a little more than I normally would be exposed to ( still yet to have an Australian friend, though :X ).

Then came ultimate frisbee. I made an effort to meet up with my high school senior, just for the sake of it. Thank god for that effort, otherwise I would have no idea on which emo planet I would be levitating about today. Story cut short, I got to meet these awesome bunch of people who calls themself, Running Man or from their initial name, Cendol. Also not to forget that I got exposed to the game of Ultimate. Still mind blowing, still mind blowing.

Last semester, MUMSU literally saved my soul. They held activities that gave me a platform to mingle around with fellow Malaysians studying in Clayton. Now? I am one of the committee. A sponsorship officer, they say. Got me a little whacked out, as I grew to know that clubs and societies in university level is beyond the limits of high school. But it's a good exposure, still. I mean, if I don't get that chance to learn this now, when will I ever?

It feels a little overwhelming with so much going on within the past 1 and a half month. In about 18 days from today, I will be on my flight home again. But it will be a very short trip, cause my exam happens to be 'dropping by' at the end of this month. I haven't been nerding as much as I used to. Which can be pretty worrying.

The one subject that I am most concern of, would be Chemistry. I remember very well that when I first started this semester for this unit, I was clueless. There were just too many calculations, that it just made me panic even more. I am alright with both my biology units (except the part where it involves plants). Then my geography unit was pretty closely related to one of my bio unit. Seems alright, really. Just really worried for my chemistry. Its the first paper too. 29th of October, I will soooooooooo dread that day. :(

Oh, and I have decided to continue with playing Ultimate. It feels like there is still so much more to learn about this game. :F

Also partially hoping I still get the chance cheer again, in some way, some how. :/

Midway point! On the train to Huntingdale. 45 mins bus ride from my sis' to Melbourne Central, then.. ?

Octoberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.