I speak, through my blog.

It literally speaks of everything I could ever possibly think of as compared to when I talk. It doesn't feel like I am burdening anyone by posting my thoughts on my blog, as it is not a pressure to say: YOU MUST READ ME.

Though I really get fascinated when someone does ask me about my life, based on my blog. Faith in humanity, restored?

Meh.

Maybe the reason why I chose to study zoology after all. Eventhough we all know that passion is the main reason that steers us towards success in the future. The way I look at my future, doesnt seem as bright as how parents would see it (society too). It somehow seems like a no-brainer kind of field to choose from, or some could say 'silly'.

Obviously parents would be worried if your future job wouldn't be able to provide you a good income. I believe that they secretly wants you to have that money to take care of them once they are older. Also, I guess their experiences gives them that parent-ly instinct in hopes for a secure future for your future family. Somehow, it outweighs that push to enhance the child's passion. Asians, why?

Anyway, this was somehow that one thing I managed to push through despite all the negative impressions I got as a result of answering the question: 'so.. You wanna work in the zoo?' How is it possible that I could have this question fresh in my head every single time I mention the word ZOOlogy. It feels like I have to explain from where the animals originates from and the importance to them being around before we humans came to life, and still living til this very day.

Then to think about how ignorant majority of the people are, I just give up immediately and say: 'it isn't necessary, I could work in the wild and do some research there'. Then of course, the conversation dies there. Thus the intriguing feeling when someone actually asked more beyond that question. A sigh of relief to my soul when that happens, non-ignorant people towards animals still exists! <3

Also on the norm, people would respond: 'oh! Interesting'.

Word.

Then to think again, they may be thinking of how suicidal I am by doing this, or how rich my family is for allowing me to do this.

I haven't even started my core major yet, but I know I have this passion for animals. Starting next semester, I am pretty much full on with my biology combo. Though I have to admit, I despise plants. It feels like they are there to block the beauty of the animal kingdom, cause without plants, there wouldn't be any life forms. Somehow feels like they ate God, all of a sudden. LOL.

I guess it is just that self satisfaction in trying to find answers to prove that my thoughts about animals are true. For instance, maybe after every new discovery that is new to my system would make me go, 'HA! IN YOUR FACE, SOCIETY!' That, will be insane. But my aim is to find the reason to change the society's mindset about animals. It doesn't feel fair at all, whenever I see the interaction between humans and animals.

Just recently I had a thought of how Dogs, became man's best friend. I was pondering upon the logic of humans taking in dogs as puppies, and complains ay every thing it does that doesnt please us. I could not fathom. Then I starting wondering, what it would be like if it was out in the wild, brought up naturally by its own parents. Ironically, dogs were my first encounter with animals in my life, and they were the reason to why I love animals to a level whereby I wanted to study them. Now I am questioning if I would ever want to have a pet, ever again. :X

Even if I don't get to change the society, by finding bits and pieces if evidence, here and there.. I guess I could die in peace, then?

Besides, I really can't imagine what other fields I could venture in. I've got no brains for medicine or engineering, I've got no logic in any of the business field nor arts field. The only thing left were dancing and singing (even this, I suck at.. ).

There is never one thing that is not difficult. You just need to begin from somewhere, and then push through. Barging through, isn't the way out either. Pushing in a way where you stay mentally strong and physically healthy through it all.

Loves!