Honestly, I don't want to graduate.

As in, I don't want to attend my own graduation ceremony. 3 years of uni and I've always been a little annoyed at graduations. Yes, it may be one of my happiest days, a proud moment to share with people who are truly appreciate that moment where I actually graduate.

But I don't want to.

First off, I have to pay a ridiculous amount of money just to rent the robe and to walk down the stage and have a handshake with the dean(?) and then walk away.

Next, I have to wait super long for my turn to walk up the stage and wait super long for the ceremony to be over and done with.

Official graduation photos will cost a bomb.

I must return my robe within a certain time, because other people needs to rent the robe from uni too.

Then I need to dress up properly for my 'special' day. (Which I feel isn't really that special because a whole bunch of people will also be graduating)

But ultimately, I don't want to graduate is because I am afraid that nobody will turn up. I have been to enough graduations to see how important they were to at least a group of friends and also their family members. Friends and family would travel distances and spend a significant amount of time waiting there just to have a photo with the graduate, some may even stay to have dinner together. It seems like a grand celebration. Something really important to them.

Me? I have a feeling that if I do graduate, it will be a waste of money because it will only be for myself.

I'd rather spend that money on a trip, really.
I want to have a grad trip to Cairns, where the Great Barrier Reef is. Or maybe a short trip to Antarctica where I get to see nature and animals just the way they are. :)