21 jump street

Nine

Alice in Wonderland

Spent the past 5 hours watching movies. Still about 3 hours worth of flight. Glaring into my window, the sky looks as though it is raining stars. Somewhat like a view of fireworks during special days. Feeling slightly nostalgic at the moment. A total number of 4 cups of tea today, nicely jamming up my sleeping pattern. I guess it works well considering it's a midnight flight. Would have been a terrible complaint if I were to try to sleep but not being able to. At least I am given food and entertainment, I'd say the money was well spent.

It had been a rough month *sortoff*. Could blame the examination stress and such. But I never expected I would be stressed out about going home either. Never in a million years. Then it hit me. Prior to the examination season, I was all excited about going home; thinking of all those glorious food I will be able to eat, wearing shorts and doing some much needed shopping. Things changed, my time now seemed pretty much packed, and I will not have time for everybody. I guess it was a matter of bad timing?

Maybe I was being a little too demanding, being slightly princess-y, wanting to have everything going as smoothly it can be without me putting a single effort into. Somewhat saying: I have suffered enough, I need some royalty treatment for abit. Mmmmmh. Yeah. I was expecting too much at that point.

5 months in Melbourne on my own had passed. I learned to live like a total stranger, probably not even existing to most. Had problems communicating too. Can I say that I have lost all my confidence and social skills? Learning to manage problems, household and money issues. Sometimes, it feels like I am being forced to grow up. One thing I know for sure is, that I have finally accepted my life as it is living in Melbourne. Still feeling the loneliness at times, but I had to kick it away somehow. All is well.

I almost forgotten about the time difference between Melbourne and Malaysia, as it seems unnecessary these days. Friends come and go. If they find you, good for you. They don't? Then you know where they truly stand on your friend scale. :)

Even the currency thing, I almost couldnt bother either. Simply because I am ALWAYS purchasing things that are on discount or sale. Also, if I were to calculate, I am pretty sure I would end up not eating. Yet with the scarcity of food from time to time (plus occasional lazy days), I am still gaining weight. Hrmmmmmm

Getting really sleepy noww. Update soon!

Going home to relive myself, can I find it though?

5.08am
21st June 2012.

Lol. Feeling extremely blur. Only 2.5 hours of sleep. 4 and a half cups of tea. Blur to a point someone had to pretty much look after me. Hehehe. Really nice of her though. :X Oops. Too much of being pampered as the 'youngest' around there. :O Wondering if I should change to Malaysian time or not.

8.50am
21st June 2011.

It's still aussie time for this phone. Think I shall just leave it as it is. Heh. Wonder why am I doing a live blog sort of post. I just felt like capturing every moment of it somehow. Still wide awake at the moment. Thank you tea, thank you. :P

It really does feel nice to be home, honestly. It makes me happy somehow. My aunt picked me up and I started telling her stories that I couldn't. Haha! Though I do feel tired, but I was happy. Things were still the same. Grocery shopping seemed a little bizarre to me since my shopping habit has grown into a level of its own. The greens here made me confused, but I managed to pick up a few of those I remembered were my favs. Aunt's cooking for dinner! YEAY! :D

The weather... What is with the haze?! :( Will take some time to readjust myself into this temp for sure. Hahahahaha! Yes. Indeed.

I don't think I will be sleeping anytime soon though. :P

10.45am
21st June 2012.

Know what's scary? It's that this might all be a dream. Fact: temporary relief.

12.06pm
21st June 2012.