With the Girls' Generation. BoomBoomBoom!

I have an hour until my stats paper starts. Honestly, I feel traumatized by my previous maths paper (last year). That paper really scarred me bad. :(

Maths is one subject I dread most out all my subjects. Ever since the alphabets came in, additional maths was something I could never do. And hence, the panic. For wanting to do good, but incapable of doing so. :/ I just couldn't grasp the concept. A Chinese Asian who know nuts about maths, is quite an embarrassment.

Anyhow. I remember very well I was worried sick for my math paper last year. Stayed up til late to do some studying. Ended up indulging into a pint of green tea icecream. Which was a very bad idea; it kept up wide awake, wide awake til I had to force myself to sleep at 7am in the morning. Thankfully, the paper wasnt til noon. Which meant, I still have time to have some rest and head over for the exam. I was wrong still. :/ I ended up feeling so much more panic-ier than I should ever. When I was waiting for the doors to open, I knew I forgotten to bring something along with me. Little did I know, it was the most important thing for the examination: the two precede of paper full of notes. I think I forgotten to bring something else too. But I was almost in tears when I found out I forgotten to bring my notes with me. Drama much, but it costed me my exam. I couldn't answer a single question. I wasnt in a suitable state to be doing the exam. But I had no choice, I had to do it there and then. Results? I failed miserably.

I thought I could get away by not taking any math related subject this year. Oh look, it's compulsory. So I took the easiest they could offer. Stats 1020. I think. Lecturer was boring, tutor gave me that text book pep talk. I skipped a few lectures, even. I just disliked anything related to math. And now I have to sit for the paper. All I am hoping for, is a pass.

If I don't pass, I know why.

But the crappy part is that I have to find a way to take this unit again, and pass this, so that I can graduate from Monash with my degree, Ba.S ... Is that how you shorten it? LOL

So, its today, tomorrow and then I can board my flight home to Malaysia. Ten days there, and I am off again. It feels like I am traveling the world somehow.

That dream where you dream that you are late for your examination, and then you woke up LATE.
Dreamt that my aunt was around to send me to the examination venue. But nope. I woke up to find that I am alone in my room in Aussie. I had to get to the place by my own, late or early, that will be my choice. Bleah. That's a sign where you know you have to grow up and take full responsibility of your own judgements and actions. Still 19! I have 8 more months to be a teen before being an adult by default. :O Let me be a kid while I still can!! :D Thank you! :D

On the side note: absolutely in love with snsd's paparazzi. :)

2nd July! Another dream will be fulfilled. 0:)