All I think about, is study.

NO JOKE!

Whenever I have free time, I would think that I should be spending my time in front of the computer, with my books open and pens of different colours layed out in front of me, along with some food to much on along, and I am ready to start studying. What is it that I have so much to study for? I am pretty sure nobody else around me are as MENTAL as me, doing this without fail. I would feel burdened whenever ONE WEEK of lectures have passed and I am only still onmy 2nd week notes. Not too sure why I got myself into this behaviour, but I do believe it is helping me ALOT.

Though I wonder, with so much effot put into studying, why is it that I am still unable to attain HDs. As a matter of fact, I have yet to get a HD in any of my 4 subjects. All I could manage was 3Ds and one Credit, which I am extremely proud of. This is definitely something very difficult for me to achieve back in my preU days, AusMat.

I would say that I am not a bright student, and I require super duper load of effort in order for me to get a HD. Imagine if I had studied much more diligently, I could actually manage a HD. I COULD...

Maybe...

I wish, and I hope.

All that I know now, is that I could not afford to let go of this habit I have now. I could very well lose the chance to retaining my Ds for this semester if I do. It's not like I don't have a break or anything. It is more like my breaks are the times that I study.

Probably because I have got nothing better to do, anyways.

Also I am rather worried that if I do start doing other things, I might not be able to sit down like this and write my own notes like this as often as I could...?

Hrmmmmmmmmm.....