Statistically, we knew that Lin Dan would win.

But deep in our hearts, we knew that Chong Wei has that ability to bring the gold home.

We chose to listen to our hearts.

Initially I thought I wouldn't watch the match since aussie tv only shows events that has Australians in it, finding a good streaming video would be a question of its lags. So happen I was skyping with my friend and she was hyped about the event, I thought why not watch it from her side via Skype? It wasnt a bad idea at all, but the pixels were confusing me on whether it was an in or an out. Finally got me searching for streams online. Almost all failed, but one where I refreshed patiently after it failed several times. It was slightly delayed from the Skype version, but much clearer.

I could hear my friend screaming with joy, going, 'ah!! Haha!! That's it!', and 'urgh! Why?!' to a point where she said, 'you know what? I am going to sit here and meditate!'. That was not it! Facebook and twitter were all filled with updates almost every second of the whole game. From frustrations of not getting the 2nd game and finally that moment of silence when lindan scored the past point.

I would say I have never seen Malaysians so enthusiast about something. Yes, we have badminton all these while, bersih rally and football, but this was that one time we know we had a chance in listening to our national anthem being played at the olympics for the first time, ever. (Why isnt squash an Olympic event?!) The moment when we saw that lindan won, we stood in shock, probably with no thoughts in our heads for a split second... until the camera showed glimpse of chong wei sadly kneeling on the floor with defeat, we knew that we have lost and that he is feeling the worst out of all of us.

I don't know about you, but I was definitely sad looking at him being sad. It feels like he too knows that he has thay chance to win it, but he just couldnt and that he not only let himself down, he has let the entire nation down. That pressure on him, was too much to handle (in my opinion). Not too sure why is the prime minister being all; 'we must all root for him! He can bring home the gold for us!' and his wife going; 'he is like my son, I hope he won't be shaken tomorrow' and flew all the way to London to supposedly show support. My question is, why now? Why take the glamour and the spotlight when he is finally at the top? Would you honestly give much thought if he was just a moderate player? :/

Then there is an issue with baskin robbins giving out free icecream if chong wei does win. Not sure it is a mocking gimmick or it is to raise public awareness to support our nation's pride.

Though it does make me wonder, does he know the scale of which the support Malaysians are showing? Hrmmm.

I wish there was something I could do to comfort him after all those pressure he has gone through. Having the whole nation watching your every move, hoping you will bring home the gold (and probably some icecream and also a public holiday, perhaps), only to disappoint in the end.

People might say; 'it's alright, you did a great job!' and all kinds of encouraging things that could possibly be mentioned, that "pain" never really dies...