142km up north, and 142km back south, a total of 4 hours drive in approximation, and half a tank of petrol, speed average of about 120km/h, the journey to find where the heart was born, was indeed a worthy one.

It was some sort of me paying my respect to my grandmother who is growing older by the year, and my aunt whom I have not took the initiative to visit eventhough I could drive freely already, not forgetting with the fact that I am leaving for Australia, I figured I should visit them before I go.

With the passing of my grandmother on my maternal side November last year, it made me miss her for she was the closer grandma than my paternal's side. It gave me that thought that I should show up somehow, who knows if I would not have the chance to anymore.

It was an initial plan to visit my grandma with the company of my mother, but we had not enough time as my dear mom had to leave for work back in Macau. To my surprise, my aunt, whom I live with, volunteered to drive me over for a visit. Travelling alone for such a long distance wasn't a good idea, as it proved that I almost hit two cars today. =/

But it was a worthy trip after all. After all those worrying about meeting my father, after worrying about my aunt being all awkward with my paternal aunt. It got me queasy with the thinking and worried as well.

Now to think of it, there were no regrets at all. My father was not around, and it was like watching two of the people who loved me to their bottom of their hearts, talking about me, happily. I have never felt such love ever. Funny how it was understood that, how loosely bonded I am to my mother and how I afraid I am of my father, these two aunts were loving me as though I was their own daughter.

It was the moment when I felt truly blessed. The moment when I felt like I was the luckiest person ever alive. The moment when I know that I am truly loved. The moment I knew that they, will be there for me regardless of whatever that has or will happen to me. The moment that I discover where my heart belongs. =')