Of equality.

As a 19 year old, I am able to see and reflect on how kids behave. Kids are innocent and their reactions tell the whole lot of different story when being faced with a particular situation. I remember I was having mcD's and the table on my right had about 5 kids munching away on their happy meals. True enough, they were arguing on facts with the single parent who was there with them. I may have forgotten what the arguements was for, but I find it amusing on how kids think that they know everything with the little knowledge they have. And how they were truthful with what they know, was even more intriguing. For we all know adults have been through at least 2 decades of life, they should have much more knowledge than a 7-8 year olds. But they choose to keep their knowledge to themselves and use them when they need to.

Yes. Because the society has brought upon us such stigma. You show a little knowledge of yourself, you will be commented on, provably along the lines of, "oh? You are that smart now?". And if you don't display your intelligence, "you are dumb as hell". Simply because we, humans, have been granted rights for our very own wellbeing. Rights that would protect us from harm, rights that would give us a voice to speak upon, rights that would provide justice. As so we see it. Fact is, we have been abusing our rights. Fact is, that we are changing our time, in hopes to build a better future. Fact is, the rights are those that makes us feel like we have some sort of hidden super powers against the authorities.

If one would look and study properly, one would see how terrible the job of our dear leader is doing. And we would normally blame the leader as he/she is understood to be the head of the country, thus everything has to be approved by him/her before it could be carried out. And we would continue blaming until a change is given to us. We, citizens assume that the government is doing a bad job in helping to improve the nation, we protest, we demand, we question for more. We get angry because we were not given our rights. Or so we see.

We had a bersih rally last year. Which had caused me to miss my first ever ballet show. Unfortunately for my yellow car, it was better to stay home, and I could not support my friend for the show either. The protest was to show the government that we, the citizens want fair voting for this year's election. All of the protestants knew each and every detail about their rights in doing so before they took up the courage to team up for the protest. Those water bombs and tear gases? They had only made the citizens even more furious about the fact that they did not get their fair share of protesting in peace.

Though my question is, was all of these necessary? All those protest, demands and accusations? As we look at where we are, what we have and who we are today, had it not been a giant leap altogether? We have schools in just under a woodshacks and kids would just study happily then. We had that terrible war, which had scarred so many of us. We had terrorist after the war. We had jungles everywhere. One thing for sure is that we had almost everything we could ask for today.

But no, we still want to ask for more. I couldnt help but to envy the privileges students in the government school get these days. They get free textbooks to study with, lower school fees to pay and have better facilities than my time. Though it had only been two years since I got out from government school, they seem to have a better life than we did during my generation. They even got money/voucher to spend on whatever they need. And my question to you is, did you spend them with what you really need?

Talking about rights. We have never stopped arguing about that. Why? Because in the past, women were not given any rights at all. Look at what we have today, women dominating the world... literally. But then again, we, humans will never be satisfied with what we have. I do find it rather shameful sometimes. But with such demands, we could not have been where we are today. Nobody is ever perfect, and so we question their capabilities and we expect something else which provides better outcomes in return.

Sometimes, I do feel like life would be much easier if we had that ruling of North Korea. Simple. No worries about anything, just living life as it is, given by the government. One protest, and you have your entire family, near and extended, everybody being thrown into prisons. If you get caught escaping, the whole family dies. Here, you are prohibited to ask or to even question the superior. The way we see it, that these people are living in hell. But when watching documentaries, they somewhat reflect how it was like when the ancients were ruling, dictatorship, godlike, and everybody was just afraid. But the fact that they know nothing, is actually saving themselves a whole load of fuss. Recently there was a video on north korean kids at the age of 4-5 playing guitars in such skills the was mind blowing. We cant say that they are uneducated, can we? We just dont know how it is like exactly, to be in their shoes, for we are much more comfortable in our own.

Where do we go from here? Protests going on every now and then. I hadn't been reading the newspaper for the whole year last year, for I knew they were white lies to begin with. When I was in Singapore recently, the taxi driver asked me about Anwar, and I had no clue what he was saying. I couldn't even bother to know what was going on in my own country and here we have a foreigner knowing about my country. And I believe I will continue to be ignorant about such matters. I believe all those havoc was caused by the people. Yes, one should be alert with what is happening, and what if I do? Am I supposed to join the protest? Does it make any difference between knowing and not knowing? =/