What an audition is like.
I have yet to get myself to audition once. But this would be my first time being at a venue where an audition is being held. Here in Singapore again for the 2nd time in less than a months interval, accompanying my dear friend for the audition. Trying out to be a chance to be a jyp training. It's a kpop company, that brought Wonder Girls, 2am, 2pm and Miss A to existence. Well, as a kpop fan myself, I should probably be participating in the audition as well, yes? But. I chose not to.

Being a kpop artist in training, I would have to give up my social life, I would say being a slave to the company. But this, is a dream to some people for getting the chance to be a kpop star, what more under this well known name of jyp. You would have to have the talent and commitment like no other just to be one. There was practically so much that the company demands for, it felt like I would not have a chance anyways. Knowing that I wasnt willing to give up my social life, especially my blog, this one commitment is rather difficult for me to give it up.

I remember I used to have a dream of being a kpop artist. Back when I was in high school, with practically no hopes to look up to, being lazy to think of the future, being an artist is like the easiest thing to do then. =P
But I have my future planned now, and that I am moments away from fulfilling it, being a kpop star seems ridiculous now. Heh. Hypocrite bitch I am. But I am honest. >< besides, I know my voice isnt consistent and strong enough to be considered. What if I was lucky enough to actually be chosen to be a trainee? Nope. I'd give this one up still.

As I was in line, accompanying my friend with her registration, I glance through the many hopefuls, trying to see what the judges may seem to be interested in. From the experience of looking at array of kpop artists out there, only a few were the creme de la creme out of the rest. Those who got my attention the moment I glance through the crowd. For sure everyone was looking at their best, yes? Some were already looking like potential artists. Others weren't as much. Stereotyping, yeah. But if speaking about talents, it is hopeful that some would be good enough to wow the judges. That would be really cool, honestly. =) those would probably be worth for the company to keep as trainees.

Fact that they even try out for this was already respectable. Not many would actually dare to try out. People like me, for instance. Only problem was that, some people think that they were good enough when they actually weren't, would probably annoy the judges. =/
Looking at people walking out from the room. Feeling nervous for my friend now. =O We both know it is impossible to get through, but it was still worth a try, it was her dream. It was mine too, but I dropped it, and I came by to support hers. I was already having another dream becoming a reality, it would be too much if I wanted too many dreams at the same time, no?

"so many awkward moments in my dance"
Mmh. Everybody is coming out rejected. See? It's not that easy, man. Thus the guts is something I respect. =)

But there is one thing that annoys the crap out of me. Kpop stars wannabes. They have this distinct aura that makes me feel like they exist to annoy the crap our of other proper kpop fans. These people would be going on an on about how they love this artist, tries irritating their dance, singing and also style. It was as though they have lost their own identity and were trying to be awesome like their idols. They dont understand that they dont have the talent yet thinking that they have it all, the whole damn package to be like one of their idolized artists. There is a difference between the types of fans out there.

I think I just did some thrashing at that previous paragraph. Well, as a kpop fan myself, I do get annoyed by them. =/

Anyhoo. Being a kpop artist is a big deal. You train your vocals, practise your dance choreos and learn entertainment things for 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You practically have only sufficient time to do almost nothing at all. What is fixed, is your schedule and you work with the schedule given to you. I dont know what life exactly is like when you are a kpop star, all I know is that they are constantly working and they have no time for themselves. If you are in a group, you would have to bond really well with them, as they will be your family until your stardom fades. And your fans are the only support you can get, aside from your surrogate family. For it will be difficult for you to even reach out to your own social circle in the midst of that packed schedule. =(

Sacrifices are indeed necessary when the 'want' is there.

10.36am, 14th Jan 2012.