ha! lookie! i changed it into something more colourful, yet still with a slight touch of sophistication! well. maybe sophistication isn't the exact word, but what i meant to say is that there is some sense of mystery within this blog. yeah. i like to make things even more complicated when things arent complicated at all. i find it much more interesting when you put a extra effort into normal things and voila! something abnormal. heh.

this is so random!
but i guess this would have to do as my opening post for my brand new blog, with colours.

let's begin with a few whys to the whats on this new blog of mine. first up! the blog theme. well, looking at how people would get millions of hits just by posting up random posts, with some substance, i decided i too want some attention on my blog. not because i am being vain, but i would really like it when people do read my blog and give some feedbacks on how to improve myself. and i figured i find it difficult to change my writing style as for all this while, i've been writing based on my feelings. whatever i feel like writing, they would be poured out here, just like that, with ease, no pressure at all. this type of writing does make me get this weird relieved feeling. it does make me feel much better. and i realise at some point, whether i have readers or not, it is still about the feeling that matters most. writing is one way i express myself.

i am still selfish. and i am starving of feedbacks! =O yeah. i would really like to improve my writing styles. =) and so, the first step, would be the colour. i'd chose blue as the main theme as it is said to be calming. unlike my previous blog, it was entirely black. it was on purpose, for i was in the state where, "if you want to read, you read, i'm making it hard for you to read, hoping i will only get loyal readers who would genuinely read because they want to read". that sentence does not make sense at all. hehe. i do apologise. been stoning on bed for the whole day today. such a good way to start of the new year; with a meaningless blogpost.

a new start, a new journey.
question?
i have a silly habit where i would like to separate each year with a different blog, as i believe it would be much better for me to backtrack on how much i have changed or developed. trust me, between two blogs(one year difference), there can be some very drastic changes, and i never fail to stop to ponder upon those moments i used to have. just like my previous blogs, i will continue with my essence of backtracking memories, because this is one reason for me to be where i am today. the past had taught me alot, and i believe it would be an aid for me to learn more in the future. =) crazy as i may be, i decided that i would just have my very own phrase;' if i'm not crazy, i am just not normal'. and my friends would all agree with that phrase. heh! #win

and because i have such a spectacular year last year, i had realise life after high school is somewhat unpredictable. it took me about 6 months to calm myself down to continue blogging. and even that was due to my friends who inspired my start writing again. they were talking about how they like writing, how others would write and what their opinions on people's writing was. i used to have thoughts of writing a book on my own, little had i known, there were people who have that thought of mine as their dreams. and no, they were not joking when they were mentioning how they will publish a book someday in the future where i could have a chance to have a copy of their work too. such inspiring people. what not? i went and started writing to see how far i could go. besides, my english was having some difficulties as my writing has somewhat rusted. and blogging has gotten by brains to function much more smoothly when there came time where i need to write.

and now, i am one month and two weeks away from realising my hopes of studying in australia. and one way that i would be able to keep track of every memory of this memorable ride, is by blogging. honestly saying, for the first six months of last year, it felt like a black hole. and i do not wish for the same thing to happen, especially this time around, when i will be moving over to a whole new different environment, all on my own. and my dear blog will be my one friend who will accompany me through the rides of my life from now on. alongside that, i get to post my journey here and share with everyone back home who feels like knowing what i am up to. it would be as honest as possible, for i believe it would be the closest,coming in second behind facetime communication. =/

personally, i would like to preserve the blog before this as the 'college memories'. yes, i may not have NAMES in that blog of mine, those words would be enough to trigger certain memories, for sure. along with that, a whole lot of other random posts when i just felt like posting something. who knows i would have a whole different opinion from what i had posted before this. haha!

as of now, it's the new year, goodness knows what will be ahead of me, but i'll keep my head up, going through everything with a brave heart and spirit, smiling through everything that is thrown at me. while the countdown continues, i have a series of tasks to do until then.
-sister's wedding
-visa application etc
-last meetups with friends
fingers crossed things will be alright.
=)

happy new year!