melbourne, monash it is.

not much i would have to say about it. i had probably nagged on an on about this matter that it gets tiring to even repeat. no doubt i still question if it's the right decision made, but i would just go ahead with my decision. for time is running out. i have only a month left to settle the rest. fingers crossed my visa would be settled by then. and the flight itself is raising by the day. it was only last week that i checked, and it has already increased to about rm500. heh. more delayings and i would probably have to pay more than i should in the first place.

my mom came home and i did more discussions with her, mostly it was regarding the money problem. like i have mentioned before, she said the exact same thing, 'your expenses, you would have to earn on your own already'. no arguements that, it was alraedy expected. but it worries me on how much i can actually earn and save and also spend whilst i am there. things that i have never done before, it would probably be hard for me to predict how much am i supposed to spend in a month. college had thought me to spend considerably though, and i am hoping it would help when i'm there in aussie. difference would be that i would not have to pay for the car petrol and the tolls anymore, as driving around there would be impossible. but this would be replaced with me paying for my accomodation. i have heard of friends mentioning about staying in hostels and all, i myself have yet to experience, and this would definitely be my first time. hrmm. definitely something to look out for.

as the agent has said, that opting for on-campus accomodation would be unlikely now as there are many others who chose the same option. but i will still try to get one. and if it fails, at least i still have my sister for this one. just this one i hope. i would probably hop into her place for a week or two until i get a proper place to stay on my own. still preferably on-campus accomodation would be better. then i need not depend on my sister. staying in aussie can be quite pricey. but i guess i have no choice. and this all comes back to the money issue, which then brings me to...

another back up plan of mine.
i would still be studying in monash for the whole year. maybe as a try out year, except that i have to do my best. for if my mom really could not afford to support me for my two remaining years, i still have the chance to transfer my credits over to tasmanian university. cost there is almost HALF of monash. provided i have to do well, that my credits would be sufficient enough to be transferred over. this, would be a back up plan, if i really can't find a way to stay the the whole 3 years there in melbourne. though there could be an issue that monash might not allow me to transfer my credits over. as for this, i guess i would have to push myself to work and get a better pay and save even more to push through the remaining two years. mmhmm. it is set.

i may sound like i have no clue what i am headed for. maybe to you, the part where i said i would push myself might give you some doubts, don't worry, cause i am in doubt as well. honestly, this is all i have to cling onto to push myself to face whatever brings. yeap. besides, when there is a will, there will be a way. especially when i'm alone, i'm pretty sure i would do whatever it takes to keep myself steady.

as of now, i am mentally prepared to be there on my own.
it is about time that i learn something. =)

been pulled back for the past few days. i could've settled everything before my sister's wedding, but i needed to be sure i got my mom into the same page as i did before confirming. thus the time now is probably... too short for comfort. i still have yet to hand in my visa application and my offer letter. this, i will get it done by tomorrow, if not by friday. all i need is the money. lol. yeah. money.
what's left after that is just my health check and my flight to aussie.
mmhmm. i'm on the right track.
i believe i am.
*fingers crossed*