Cause god, it just feels so good.

Well, what happened today has definitely lifted me up to me being myself again. After a whole lot or moping and emoing around that I am actually leaving here for good. I guess it felt like I hadn't have enough time with everyone and that I felt really heavy hearted to leave, cause I know there were a few whom I have not met yet. It just felt incomplete!

Also part of me felt really bummed when I knew there were farewells for others but none for me. It really did feel like nobody was gonna remember me and that my past would probably look like it is hanging there on the cliff, an inch away from the plunge, yet safe enough to survive the next turbulence of wind. Hrmm. Yes. I wanted one farewell party for my own! I wanted to feel appreciated! But I already had one, prior to this one, I was already happy enough that that event took place. But today, really caught me off guard. One that had me stunned for a whole 5 minutes before I actually came back to my senses.

Never had I thought that people would actually throw me a surprise party. All this while I would be the busy one planning outings and hoping that it would be enough to make the others feel happy. And I would always be happier when I see the others being happy. Somewhat like I feed on people's joy, but it just is that awesome to see others being happy. So, no, never in a million years had I expected a surprise party.

All I knew that I was preparing myself to meet up with yune-lyn and natasha for the last time, and I thought, 'hey! It's time to hear how lyn's proper vocals would sound like!'. Thus the thought of going for a karaoke session with these two darlings. Since Sha was already a singer, and I just felt like singing with proper vocals, going for a karaoke sessions seems like a must before I go. =F yeap. But I was all gloomy and took my own sweet time to arrive at the scene. As I walk towards the room, I was like... 'Erh, of all times I came to redbox, I have never been to this side of the are before. Hrmmm.'. Then I stood at the door wondering who this figure I was looking at looks like... 'why is there a guy here?! O.o'. Just when I wanted to ask Lyn, the door opened and... 'SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'.

I looked at the bunch of silly people hiding on the wall to prevent me from seeing them. Overwhelmed by the number of people I was seeing, I tried to scan through to see who they actually were. I was too confused that I stood there for about 2 minutes with my mouth open, couldnt actually grasp what was happening. Til jian arn came to me and asked me to close my mouth. Lmao. Hahahaha. Yeap. It was that shocking. It was then the group had dispersed, revealing three people who were seated, Regina, KokTong and Rachel. I knew they were different from this gang of people whom I would normally hang with. Hence the extra shock I had.

It wasnt until I sat down, I could tell who were exactly there. Luke, Sean, Sadoon, Gareth, Andrew, Marcus, Jeremy, Brandon, Kevin (the figure who appeared at the door), Natasha, Alvyn. Hahahahaha!! It took me forever to actually accept reality that they actually planned a surprise farewell party FOR ME!! This is honestly my first time ever. The first time that a group of friends had a surprise party for me. I am still find it a little bit hard to believe that it happened.

As though their appearance had not shocked me enough, they decided to get me a birthday cake as well. Lmao! My birthday isnt til end of Feb, and they are celebrating it then, on the 2nd of Feb. I find it rather funny. But the fact that they actually took the effort to celebrate my birthday, it literally made my tiny shattered heart, cry. I repeat, I have never ever thought that such surprises would happen to me. The word thank you doesnt even come close to how thankful I am to each and everyone of those whonwere involved in this event.

Awesome? Hah! You kidding bro? That word is so mainstream. I need a superlative word for awesome. Because awesome is definitely not enough to call these people for who they are as themselves and what they are to me. I couldnt help but to flashback on how I got to know each and one of them. How they all are awesome in their own way, how they have made me grown as a person, and how life had been the most joyable and meaningful thanks to their presence.

I could not thank each and everyone of you enough. Today was indeed one of the best day I ever had. =')

Even right now, it feels like I'm still dreaming. =O

Turns out that this had been planned by the both darlings since a long time ago, even before the cny. Was wondering what was with people's absence when I had been talking to them almost everyday. Somehow those little disappearances made me feel even more upset than I should've been. I was so over myself that I couldn't even see the obvious clues that I saw along the way. You sneaky people! =P awesome like that, huh? I would agree with that. =)

Gaaaahhhhhh!! I love you all!! =') <3 Cause god, it just feels so good.