Lol! After that last note, I cried. Not bad. Damn my denial self! I keep doing that. =/ I kept denying that I'm not okay, and then I end up torturing myself much more than I normally would, when all I needed was to cryyyy. Well, crying isnt easy for me. Though my mummy tells me that I'm a cry baby. Well, I'd personally like yo believe that I am some super strong person and am denial of whatever people tell of my negative sides. :P

After a short session of tears, I am now on my way to the city. Despite how the shops should be closing by now, I still figured that it would be a feat for me to travel to the city on my own today. Hehe. I had this plan of going down to the city today, but I just didnt have the courage to. Thus I was procrastinating and fumbling around, thinking I wouldnt be able to get out of the house again. As mentioned earlier, it was only a matter of self realisation that I am in fact feeling homesick.

A tendency to be in denial and refusal of believing or accepting the fact of which things were happening. Sometimes things were happening too fast that it would really take me forever to accept change. Stepping my foot into aussie is a huge step. Nothing that I would have realised up til now. Even when they threw me the farewell party, it took me forever to digest what was happening. As for when they sent me off at the airport, I didnt want to believe that I had to leave everything behind and that I had to start anew all on my own.

I didnt even post anything about my first day here in Melbourne. Nor did u took any pictures of anything when everybody kept telling me to take pretty pictures to be shared with everyone back at home. Nope. I was in denial. A very strong one indeed.

Literally beating myself up with such behaviours. But I couldnt help it.

Flinder's street. :)

Hosier's lane
Hanguk sarami eyo?
*ani, naneun malaysia saramimnida!*
If only I said that, I would probably be some badass foreigner. :D
Too bad. I'll do that next time. ;)

Hrmm. Walking alone can be a little lonely at times. But I guess I have to learn how to get used to this sort of things from now on. With the constant fear of getting lost, it got my mind pretty occupied with where I was supposed to go. Or even to enjoy what there is right in front of me. :X hehe. It's quite cool though, sometimes, cause you dont have to worry about anybody else, and you could take your own time with whatever you want to do. :D

Right now, I'm chilling at some cafe, indulging myself with chocolate. Probably end up with a chocolate overdose someday. D= the chocolate here is just that irresistible. Think I was gonna save with food even when I'm here I'm aussie? Nope. Food is my life, not a single bit would I ever give into food. Unless of course my purse is empty and that my account is dry. :O nono, that is unlikely. I would save in every way that I can and spend them on food. Just like how I did back in college. :)

Owh finally one happy post after my arrival in Melbourne!! :D
I feel so proud of myself. =')

Walking down the streets if Melbourne city, am ever so tempted to drop into one of those shops just to shop for things. Clothing, shoes, food, everything!! But then to think that I come from Malaysia, everything here would be really costly for me. Hence, the necessary to think and to spend cautiously. Likewise, food would also have to be cut down in a way. Such a heartbreak. <\3 maybe my mind would change once I start with my uni life. Right now, I am only spending on what I really need, which is food. :F

Just met up with my friend from Malaysia. She had just arrived today. Was initially thinking of being ultimately selfish for being lazy to meet up with her, but I was killing myself with homesick depression. A meet up like that was definitely a good one. It had helped brighten my mood by a lot. And also not to forget, having a proper meal to fill up my tummy. Honestly saying, if I were to be at home alone, I would probably just ignore everything and just stone in bed. :D

This post sounds more like an awesome first day in aussie post, ain't it? Hehe. Seriously never thought I would be a victim of homesick depression. :P
Now that I knowwww, I guess I should be alright from now on. :)

Australiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! :D