There are times where I truly hate myself for who I am, and what I do. Yes, it really is rather stupid of me to feel so, but I do. I have the tendency to push people into doing things they wouldn't normally do. Somewhat generates the inner courage in me to push myself too. What I never understand is the fact that each individual have their own tolerance in things which they can handle. In my case, I will assume my limit is a self given excuse, thus I push myself to a point where I would risk it all and hurt myself in the end. I fail to accept that others could not handle such tensions as much as I could. For when I think that I am about to go too far beyond my limit, I would actually push myself further, when others would already know when or where to stop.

I'm sorry.