Hullo!
It's my second day here in Melbourne. It's rather chilly and it would take me some time to get used to the weather here. Wasnt expecting the weather to be that extreme, seemingly the temperature fluctuates pretty drastically. For one day it could be rather chilly and the other might not be as chilly. However to me, chilly is chilly. Obviously I havent gotten used to the weather here just yet. Am pretty sure it will get chillier than this until which peaks at about July or so. Then, would be winter. I have no idea how I would be surviving that though. Haha.

Right now, I should be exploring the area like an excited kid. But nope, I couldn't find the courage to step out of the door on my own for now. I guess it is cause I am too used to going places with at leas a company. And I would only go alone to familiar places. But not at this moment. At least not yet. Just not yet.

I try not to let the fact that I am homesick, but it never fails to creep in somehow or rather. Fact that my mom has been calling me more often than how she usually did, it makes me feel even more upset than I already am. Telling me to take care of myself, telling me to do things that I would normally do if I were not in this state of mind. It reminded me that I am actually feeling homesick when I know I shouldnt be.

Another factor to me having homesick is the fact that I am at a different timezone than everyone back at home. I would normally stay awake until everybody had gone to sleep before I would be satisfied and then it'll be my turn to head to bed. Three hours ahead of everyone else, makes me feel like I am three hours short from everything else as compared to everyone there. By midnight there, it'll be 3am here already.

I refuse to believe that I am homesick, but I cant help it. I couldn't cry. I didnt want to. I miss how I had everyone around me. I miss how I could speak rubbish language and people would still understand me. I miss how I didnt have to worry that people wouldnt understand me when I speak with my comfortable tongue. I miss how I was the friendliest back at home when everyone here is so friendly that I feel like I'm some rude bitch. I miss my bed, where I could sprawl around and blast my music out loud during the day. I miss those big malls we had and that everywhere was nearer than what it is now. I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss you.

T.T