Funny how life changes you.

I remember back when I was in Malaysia, I would spend lavishly and only eat good food. Today, I am eating crap food, and whatever that is filling enough to keep my tummy from grumbling. I used to complain at almost everything, literally EVERYTHING when I was given the chance to. Here? Not much, I'd probably just sit at a corner and agree with whatever people has to say, taking everything that is being given to me like nobody has ever given me anything before and not to forget, calculating at almost every single thing I spent on. During my first 2 weesk, I was still in my princess mode, right now, I feel like a hostage to myself.

Is this what you call student life? You practically do things whatever you feel that is appropriate and right at that time, while a thousand of thoughts run through your mind for a concentrated filter before making the final decision. Purchasing the cheapest of the lot, paying for tge necessary, and even having that thought that you might not have enough money to spend even. Being extremely thankful and extremely excited when you get free good food.

I feel like a leech. :O

Free food, whether it's good or bad, I were to take regardless. Free stuff everywhere, GRAB AND FEEL OVERJOYED. Literally. Even taking the public transport feels painful for me. :( At least 2.30aud for a trip from my home to uni. Simply because I could not wake up earlier, and taking the bus was the better option, considering I needed to walk half an hour through the freezing morning wind, yeah, bus seems better. :/

Though when my sister does give me things, I would feel extremely guilty. :O I guess the mentality has sunk in whereby I have to learn to live in my own and have all expenses under my own belt, am pretty sure I understand how it feels like giving away free things like that. I used to be that generous bitch who gives away things rather easily, without much thoughts. Now, I would probably still give you free things, but I would probably sacrifice on my side to compensate for the lost.

Even friending people is so different now. I would be overjoyed if I had met up with a fellow malaysian around these walls of Monash. Example today, we had to talk to each other by default, and voila! I found myself a malaysian classmate. Was lucky enough that another person in my group was going to major in zoology. Mmh. Otherwise, if were not 'forced' to communicate with each other, I would probably just sit there and have that urge to say hi, but could not because the lecture was going on. I miss talking. :| On the norm, I would definitely say hi, and if the conversation stops there, I'll just look around and mind my own business. Owh, I did try communicating, but if the other person is only answering and not asking, you know you should stop talking. :)

No doubt, the insecurities will definitely kick in.

And what do you do when it does kick in?

Just sit there and calm yourself down, give yourself a thought that : everything is the way it is for some unknown reason, just hang in there and things will turn out the way it will. :D

Grey and black Monash hoodie for 39.95aud,
Red, green, black, blue, dark grey monash hoodie for 69.95aud,
They look super cool, and I would definitely need one as it is getting chillier around here...
Which one should I get? :O