This pants is so tight, I feel like ripping it off. Why on earth did I buy such tight pants? Oh lord. Makes me feel like running home just to get this pair of jeans off my already skinny legs. Hrmmm. Problem is, it fits me so nicely that I never really thought twice. HAHAHA! IT ISNT EASY FOR ME TO FIND PANTS THAT COULD FIT ME PROPERLY, OKAY?!

You know how some songs just reminds you of a certain someone? There seemed to have no explanation to it, but everytime this particular song comes up, some images of what had happened before with that song in play, floods your thoughts for that moment. Very sentimental indeed. Especially when that song had been gone, buried under all the other newer mainstream songs. Then it suddenly decideed to play out of nowhere, the flood of memories you get would probably drown you in a tsunami like wave.

Just happens that each and every song would bring a different meaning, the song Titanium by David Guetta ft. Sia, reminded me of that last week I had back in Malaysia before I came over. The memories within that one song was tremendous that I would just sit there and browse through the images in my head about that whole week's events while enjoying the flow and beat of the music.

Right now, I feel like talking about it. I just remembered that this was one part of my memory that I kept in my head and not putting it down to preserve this particular memory. I guess I was worried of what people would respond to it, but hey, I am a big girl, I can take care of myself. ;) Hopefully after putting this piece of memory here, I can let it go and fill that memory space with newer ones. :)

So~ what the last week was like? A tremendously filled emotional week. As if I am not done mentioning how emotional I have been regarding this BIG STEP I made. HAHAHA. Bare with me, darlings, I am still learning to accept things as it is. :X

LOL! I am hesitating. :X

That song, Titanium, reminded me most about these three people, Brandon, Jian Arn and Kevin. The first time I was introduced to this song, was when I was following them for a random outing for the whole day. I was the only girl then, but I couldn't care less, cause I am the kind who is used to hanging out with guys more than girls. Honestly saying, I prefer hanging out with guys more than girls too. Hypocrite of my own kind, but yeah. I guess I was hesitating about this because if I were to mention or tell my friend that I will be the only girl hanging out with the guys, they would give me that 'disgusted' response and I would feel 'one kind' after that. HAHA! But yeah, screw that. It is after all what I am most comfortable with anyways. It isn't to say that the girls were free to accompany me around anyways.

ANYHOO. I hung out with the boys and they were doing their boys stuff, driving around random places and going for games of Pool whenever they could. Best part was that I didn't need to drive. HAHAHAH! :P It didn't feel awkward at all eventhough they were only talking about football and girls, I just felt comfortable sitting there, just enjoying their company. Funny how I would always feel left out when I am with a group of girls. Hrmph. So yes, it somehow helped lifted me off my depression for abit when I hung out with them.

Then there was this spontaneous overnight trip that the 4 of us had, up to Bukit Tinggi, just two nights before my departure to Aussie. I had no idea what I was thinking then, but I knew I wanted to go. But we had a problem, Jian Arn was already up there, and it was me, Brandon and Kevin needing to plan on how to get our asses up there for the night. I thought it would be too late for us to go up, but we went on anyhow. Brandon the driver, me as the GPS and Kevin as the passenger.

This is the post that I had written in my mobile but had never gotten it published:

" And today, I am here with three guys. The only girl amongst the rest of them. And I was initially worried of how I would fit in, but I couldnt care less. It just felt like I needed to come or some shit. Not a single thought on where I would sleep or how I would be feeling like amongst them.

They offered me the bed. Though I know they would prefer to sleep on the bed if they could, but because I was the only girl, it was only appropriate for me to have the bed for my own. I guess despite how much one tries to cut the fact that there are gender differences, the fact still remains. The unwritten boundary about it.

This is my first time hanging out in such manner. I do feel a tad bit uncomfortable, but fact is, this isnt as bad as it is. They did not push me aside for being the female, they included me in things they do. Which is fine really. Somewhat of things I needed. I could listen to what they have to say, and could just let lose.

Watching that chick flick just now, I did not feel awkward at all. I guess I have grown up in a manner where those things are acceptable. I got used to them cursing too. =P Hahahahaha! Definitely a stepping stone for me. Least to say, I have to learn to see if friends could be trusted before we could actually do things past the society's stigma. "

Wah. Sounded sentimental. I guess I was really emotional then. HAHA!
At least I had the chance to do that kinda thing before coming over here, ey? Honestly saying, that wasn't the only one time that I hung out as the only girl amongst the guys. There was another gang, Sean, Sa'doon, Luke, Marcus, Gareth, Wei Qi and Jeremy, sometimes Ka Weng joins us too. HAHAHAHAHHA! But at least this one has Sam joining us from time to time whenever she has the time to. MEEPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

And when both these two groups are combined, HAHAHA. Epic.

It somehow seems like a pattern. If I were to hang out with girls, it would be a maximum of us three girls together. If it were to be any more than that, I would bail out or feel extremely awkward. Probably because it is much easier to talk when the max is only three of us, at least I know I will be heard then. hrmmm. Not too sure why exactly though. But I really do like it when I have personal meet ups with my girls. <3

GEORGE AND YUVARAJ ARE MY GIRLS! I can hang around these two with or without extra company. :D

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose, far away, far away~~

SERIOUSLY THIS PANTS... OMG!