To forget, or not to forget? It is not a decision where you can simply choose. Even if you want to, your conscious thoughts only makes you remember it even more. Also, the more you try to remember, the higher the chances that you will forget. Why does it have to be so complicated? Can't it be yes, as a yes and no, as a no? Instead of MAYBE yes or a PROBABLY no?

It is a big question to debate, if one would want to start with it, that is. But I am pretty sure one will eventually agree with that statement mentioned at the beginning of this blog post. Maybe that is the precise reason why I actually bother typing out what my exact thoughts at that exact moment would be. It isn't as though all those same thoughts would somehow or rather pop by into our heads again randomly out of nowhere. Even if they do, it would most definitely leave us at awe, "HEY! I THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE!!", and then move on with whatever that you have to do with your life. Not sure if I have actually blogged about this before, but I definitely am feeling inspired to talk about this now. hehe.

I FEEL LIKE EATING GREEN TEA GELATI.
AND ALSO CHEESECAKE.
OMG.

Anyhow, this thought about 'forgetting' came by simply because I realise I have been having several haywired thoughts lately. Partially is with ME trying to keep the past in tact, fresh in my head, while the other part is ME trying to let go slowly, and adapt to the life I am having here. It is a little of a mix between the two, sometimes, one overwhelms the other, and leaves me hanging and lost in the reality side. If you were to ask me, why trouble myself and bring unnecessary depression onto myself...? Well, I wish I knew why. The past meant so much to me, and the present currently looks a little meaningless at the moment.

Waking up, knowing that I have to get my ass into lectures by 8 am sharp; knowing that I will be bombarded with several loads of extra self studying and assignments to complete; knowing that by the end of the week, I would have to sit at home, at least one of those weekends, to do my online tests; knowing that I would have to return home to do at least a little house chores; knowing that I am here all by myself; knowing that I miss home dearly; knowing that everything here costs so much that I would have to think twice before paying for it... The list could go on and on if I could sit and actually list them down one by one. Those, are the mundane bits.

What is enjoyable is that I get to do everything at my own pace. No rush whatsoever, no need to worry if I would be a bother to other people, just chilling and relaxing as I pass my day in ease. :)

Returning to the fact that I forgotten to grab my pendrive home with me today, gave my body a shock today. HAHA! It's not like this was the first time that it's happening, I somehow let it happen again without thinking twice. Which is dumb. But I got lucky again, as my pendrive was still where it was where I left it about 7 hours later. oops.

Today is a pretty day. The sun is shining brightly, the sky is clear, the weather is not too hot nor too cold, it was a perfect day to take pictures. I got lucky as I managed to capture several shots of the calming surrounding I live in. :D

Aussie is a total 360 different from where I was brought up. Everything here is so calm, chilling, relaxing, literally nothing to worry about. Unlike back in Malaysia, I would have to doubt my own safety even when I have a car to drive around. But then again, chances of something happening to you when you are on your way to somewhere, is by default, chance. Sure, you can reduce your chances, but you still can't prevent it if it was meant to happen anyways. :O

LOL! What am I talking? :X
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By me writing my thoughts down, it does somehow help me put that thought to rest for abit, instead if it occupying my mind space like a pink elephant. :D
wheeeeee~
I needa go cook now. Bought some fish and prawns for cooking this time. PRAWNS! MY FAVOURITE!! Let's see how I fare this time around, shall we? ;)

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