The irony of it all,
I am actually living my dreams.

One that I only thought of three years ago. Sometimes, taking a step back to see where have you been, could actually propel you much further forward when you can't even put a step forward at all. Somewhat like that one step in front of you would make you fall a million feet towards death, or you have to take a slingshot to get over that one stepl. Sounds like cheating if you ask me, but it isn't always that these 'situations' come by. And when they do, it is just a matter whether you choose to take the plus points or take the hard (but definitely a silly) move.

I WANTED TO BE HERE!
And so I am here, but I am not having the time of my life as I expected. CORRECTION: I wasn't expecting anything at all, to be honest. I guess I was just too preoccupied with the fact that, 'I MUST GET MY ASS TO AUSTRALIA REGARDLESS OF THE CONSEQUESNCES'. Would that be a dumb thing to do? Was I too ambitious then? Or it just happened to be the right attitude that was necessary, otherwise I won't be able to experience what I am experiencing at this very moment.

Mixed feelings on how I should be feeling, on how I am feeling even. Which one has more priority? Living here, or studying properly? No doubt the education here was definite worth the determination to get my ass here. After all, I was lucky enough to get into Monash even. But I totally blocked those 'luck' away, and started glooming on whatever I was missing; home, friends, company, THAT QUEEN SIZED BED, MY DARLING SUNNY (my mother's, but yeah, it's like mine, LOL).

EVERYTHING was perfect then. Not to say that things aren't perfect here, but I guess I am still on the edge, trying to set my feet into this magnificent land that seemed to provide me a promising future, but an obvious struggle to get there. On the other hand, the past was no longer worth stepping back anymore either.

Truth is, I am finding it difficult to step into that mess ahead of me. Fact that everyone else has already left me and are tens of steps ahead of me, makes me feel like there wasn't any point going on anyways. DUMB THOUGHT. haha! Don't blame me, please. It's just my ridiculous thought, you always have a choice to stop reading you know? :P

Or maybe I'm just too tired from the routine I am having at the moment. Assignments, self studies and never ending streak of online tests. It tends to make me worry that I would not be able to catch up and be left out. Not to forget, I might actually miss out the most important details of any given duedates or information. :O

SCARY OKAY?!

I am complaining like a bitch. hehehe.
SORRY BOSS! <3

GOOD NEWS! SNSD IS HEADED TO MALAYSIAN SHORE AFTER ME WAITING FOR AN UNGODLY 5 YEARS FOR THEM TO COME. AND NOW I AM HERE IN AUSTRALIA. Seriously. why? :(
Anyhoo, Lady Gaga is coming over to Melb. Planning to save up some money and go for her badass concert. :)

Sigh. You see, want to enjoy pun susah. WHAT TO ENJOY YOU TELL ME?! STUDY ONLY LO. what to do? pffffftttt.
Seriously, why didn't I think about this shitty part ever?
I wonder what my life would be like if I were to be in Tassie.
hrmmmmmmmm....