Pretty sure I have complained about my bio lab members sometime ago. I thought I could get use to it, but it just intensifies. Maybe I shouldn't be bothered so much about this matter, but the fact that she is sitting beside me in bio labs, and the fact that keeps tattering as though she knows everything, fact that she always thinks she is right, IT ANNOYS THE CRAP OUT OF ME. It is alright that she is chirpy and all, but you don't have to pretend you know everything when in fact, EVERY SINGLE HUMAN IS WRONG SOMEHOW. And because I am not too convinced with whatever I am doing, her tattering made her sound like she knows exactly what she is doing. Whatever she tatters, made me doubt my own thoughts and got me confused all over, EVENTHOUGH I AM RIGHT.

It was initially the two of them, this girl and the other guy who sits opposite us in our bench, but this time, the work was rather serious, so everyone else quieted down, but that GIRL JUST WENT ON AND ON AND ON AND ON AND ON. Who goes like, "OKAY! So, we got this crossed with that and that crossed with that, and we have THIS!" every single time she tackles a question. That's like every ten seconds intervals. I was so annoyed that I just felt like saying, "Can you like stop talking to yourself for abit?" just to annoy the crap out of her. But I thought that was just rude of me if I were to do that.

This time I had to work with her to calculate and categorise flies. This time I was like, 'screw everything, I'll let you settle this one'.

Not to forget my demonstrator who doesn't seem to know what he is doing.

No wonder I dread Thursdays. -.-
Including that 2 times 2 hours break today. bleah.

Don't get me wrong, there is no way that I could possibly be happy over everything that is being thrown at me. There IS bound to be some downside to things. It is just a matter if I bother bringing it into an upside instead or not.

As much as I love bio, things like those little things does annoy me. It doesn't feel like I am learning enough and instead, getting even more confused than I normally would. That, is not what you want to get when your subjects are getting heavier and harder by the day. Of course you would want to learn properly in every class you attend, otherwise, what would all those stash of cash paid to the uni worth?

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I stopped camping in the library already. :( Mainly cause it wasn't safe for me to walk home in the middle of the night after the library closes. :/ But it was so nice camping here in the library, just sitting here and not think about anything else other than studying and eating. I just need to have food with me whenever I study. At least it keeps me away from being hungry. :P Imagine sitting in the library, in front of the computer, with music playing in your ears, food opened up ready to be popped into your mouth and then focusing on your studying. Wonder how it is actually possible to study with so much going on? Well. It felt really nice, honestly. The music calms my mind, and the food keeps me happy, studying just felt much more productive that way. ;) Everybody has got their own studying methods, that, is mine. ;) Though it's quite upsetting cause I could no longer study at home. The dim orange light in my room just makes me feel like lazying whenever darktime came. Sun is going down much earlier now too, hrmmmmmmmmmm.

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Would have to say, I am finally feeling like I belong here already. I have people who I can call friends. I have people who I can ask questions whenever I don't understand anything. I have people to hang out with when I feel like having a little companion.

Can I say that I finally am letting go?

There was this note on my my.monash website stating it was "Survival Week" during that period when I was totally breaking down. I didn't realise it was actually what it said it would be. Until when I started to feel much better, that note was still there for a few days up to a week, and now it isn't there anymore. HAHAHAHAHH! I guess I really have passed that phase of deep depression. :O

Cause right now, I could just walk about alone, without feeling lonely. Tackling assignments and studies accordingly, and also planning outings every now and then. I just felt much more relieved now. hehehehehehehehehehe. Even my cooking sort of improved. (It somehow felt like the cooking is highly dependent on emotional; scarily true. Personal experience. xD)

This weekend I will be packed with things to do.
Tonight : movie
Friday : dinner with singaporean friends
Satruday : volunteer at some asian event and Opera show in Monash
Sunday : *movie with housemate (TBC) and me spending sometime, chilling at home.

Even have thoughts of volunteering at the RSPCA throughout the whole Easter holiday week. :D (my sister gave me the suggestion, and it sounded like one awesome idea indeed)

Just yesterday I had a green light from Mummy, allowing me to go home for two weeks and then spend a week in Macau before coming back to Melbourne during my mid-sem break. You have no idea how overjoyed I was when she said that!

I was initially super bummed about the fact that she wanted to come over to Melb. Thinking that it would be WINTER and I had no place for her to bunk in, I thought of going to Macau, to warm myself abit. Then I checked the flights and they mainly needed to transit somewhere. Gave me the thought, HEY! I CAN ACTUALLY GO HOME!! But it was initially for a week. And the flight tickets were a killer. :/ approx 1.5k just to fly like that. bleahhhhhhhhhhh
Mummy told me that I should start working during my summer break, to earn my own money for my next flight home.
Honestly, that didn't sound like a bad idea!
:D

YEAY! I AM GOING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;)

I wonder if people would actually be excited to see me as I am excited just to even have the thought of going home to meet these awesome people again. :O

Okay. I need to research on my bio essay.
DUE MONDAY MIDNIGHT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
kantoi.

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